>>2481
> My personal saving graces are related to artistic special interests where I can still find resources and creativity from like-minded folk. If I didn't have that, I would have probably blasted myself already out of sheer boredom.
Some saving graces are indeed what I am lacking and it is driving me insane. My mind gradually decaies and I have no idea what to do against it. Everything is bland, a hassle, difficult, intimidating. I am always so busy with work and managing my household and I am always so tired. I feel how my will to life gets sapped, leaving only dread, doubt and despair. How to find something that appeals to me remains a mystery. What brought me joy onces still does to a small amount, but most of the time I am not in the mood for it, or I am too tired or have other things to do.
Anyway, what kind of art do you like? I don't think it's something for me, I am just interested in my fellow mages.
> I usually lurk here once a month. I don't post because my interests are incredibly niche and I am so passionate about them, I fear I may be recognized by malicious freaks
No other things to post about? Perhaps I am mistaken, but we never had any people with ill intent in the tower?
> I stopped frequently sadposting or depressionposting years ago because after a certain age you should realize how useless it is. If you continue as you are, you can't realize or imagine just how bad things will get for you if you remain idle and then something bad clocks you right at your temple.
While I like to write down stuff that troubles me, I don't post it. Having to put it into words forces me to confront the issue, which helps to reflect. I came to the same conclusion as you did, sharing it is mostly useless. Very rarely did I receive a useful answer. Sometimes it was ignored, sometimes mocked, sometimes a simple good luck. I wish I knew how to break idleness. I do work in order to pay the bills, but why should I even bother with that, if I don't want to life anyway? There is just nothing worthwhile in my free time.
>>2482
Many, many times did I already think about leaving the Internet, but I don't know what else to do. No idea what to do on the Net, no idea what to do inside while not being on the Net, no idea what to do outside. Do you spend your entire time with your art? Or what else are you doing? How did you even get into it?
The lack of soul and intimacy is really getting worse with every year. I am around since the early 2000s. Maybe I am nostalgic, but the comparison to it is beyond words. Solidaric and private spaces sound nice, I do miss this, but have no idea where I should find that. I feels like even online I have been left behind. Same as you I spent my childhood online, same goes for my teens. Now as an adult, I don't know anymore.