>It's tragic that this board has declined so deeply in its userbase
Did it really? Lol, I couldn't tell, to be honest. This board was always so painfully slow, somehow more so than the original magicchan.
>Magicchan was an amazing site, one of the best
I think I agree with you. I was posting there from the first day til' it's passing. Being part of the handful of anons who "regularly" posted in an attempt to encourage posting from each other and visitors. It was really something unique. To be completely honest, I think we all knew we were a rag-tag group of loners, maybe even self-described "bores", but the fact we still tried to uphold a community so minute amongst each other with fairly different interests for such a consistent period is just really inspiring for me, in hindsight.
I would love to post more but I am not quite sure how my posts can add value to this site. I kinda mellowed out, more serenely than what's probably expected from wizardchan users I guess. While I could have no issue relating to most posts on places like wizchan, r/foreveralone, etc,. I really see no point in spending anytime at those sites(or rampant negativity) at all. It's kind of funny seeing /dep/ still posting about suicide fuel much like what I would baww and relate to in my late teens on the original wizchan, but I just don't really have the patience for that negativity at this point, despite being much older and my age now greatly contributing to quickly ballooning sense of deep alienation.
I find myself spending less and less time on the web and focusing more on the passions I've developed over time, a far cry from being 20 and not having a single thing that I could say I was passionate about. I still am very isolated as you would expect from someone who regularly checks on this board, but it's more of a "lost", aimless, unsure predicament than one of abject despair, rejection, and loneliness.
You really can't go about things effectively alone, ie "no man is an island", but what that really means or how that can be interpreted to someone like me is still lost on me. I can't shake this deep feeling I'm just bidding time for an eventual suicide but things are going pretty well for me at the moment. I am, at least, very proud on how far I have come in many aspects from the roombound, deeply resentful, completely-inept-in-every-single-fucking-regard late teens early-20s young man I was.
I have learned a great deal from therapy, therapists, and it's practices and foundations but I feel like I have pragmatically used up what I could from them. It's up to me now, what that means I don't currently have an idea.
To be completely honest, I'm not 100% sure why I decided to write all this but maybe I'm hoping some of the older anons can relate. I'll be always watching from the background here at least. Regardless, I really hope you all manage to find things to ease any pains you might be experiencing. You may not even realize you hold more value than you can currently see in yourself.
All the best.