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Welcome back, mages. Part II 05/22/2022 (Sun) 22:41:35 No.2192
I'm not the same person who created the previous general thread (>>2), but since that one reached bump limit and it's about to fall off the front page, I thought it was time to start a new thread. So, like the original OP said, hop in this thread when you can and post about what you're up to or your thoughts lately.
Lately I've come to terms with my aging self and the kind of BS that comes with it. I just turned 27 and I've recently been more aware of the kind of expectations/treatment people might have towards a man my age. Like, prior to me being 23, I never understood why someone would be so hesitant/insecure to be honest or share their age. But the last three years or so, I've noticed peoples' disposition would change after revealing my age(I look much younger than I am, consistently surprising people of all ages/attractiveness/gender) I don't doubt it has alot more to do with my height and my parents genetics(they were both fairly attractive until about the age 25), but since around the age of around 19, I've been youthmaxxing(before it was even a term). During my late teens, I developed noticeable acne/scars that only worsened my already hopeless Social Anxiety and Depression at that time. I distinctly remember being so neurotic, anytime I mustered the courage to leave the house, I would make a spectacle of myself or complete strangers would treat me unbelievably poorly. It was so bad, I really wished something like Google-glass or camera-glasses were an affordable thing for an unemployable HikikiNEET at the time, since people really had a hard time believing just how bad people will treat if you carry yourself as badly as I did(mostly redditors with their just-world crap and survivorship bias) After a failed suicide-attempt at 19, I figured for whatever reason, I was stuck here for the long-haul, so I made the biggest push for self-improvement I ever made up until that point in my life. I ate better, I downloaded depression/anxiety worksheets and therapy tapes, I forced myself to drink water and only water despite hating it, went to the park or had these long-ass nighttreks that looking back, I'm surprised I wasn't kidnapped for my organs since I was listening to music at 12AM-4AM. Little-later(6months-1year later) my acne gradually went away on its own(no treatments worked, it just went away) and I was still stuck with the scars/pigmentation. So to lessen their appearance I got into microneedling, sunscreen, and limiting sun exposure. Later learned the same things were greatly beneficial for anti-aging and just went "fuck it" having gotten used to the smell of sunscreen and microneedling procedures, so I stuck with them to this day, since somehow, I knew then i would be reaching milestones much later in life than your average person(job, driving,etc,.) Anyway, so I'm a good deal older now and I understand people are a lot less tolerant of older men who don't come across as "put-together" or mature. It's been something I've worried about more than ever now, at this age, people are a lot less patient with you in general(coworkers expect more and less willing to train, your inexperience makes connecting with people much more difficult,etc,.) and MUCH LESS forgiving to social faux pas. I just hope I can develop myself in time to better mask-in, before the agecreep really starts coming on me. To clarify, I'm not gunning for being "normie" or relationships. It's just when you've been treated so poorly, it's enough of a fuel to make sure that DOESN'T happen again. Sometime last year, male-pattern baldness creeped on me and I didn't notice until the very end of the year. Thankfully, I was able to reverse most of it, but yeah, my hairline is never going to be as good as it was as a teenager. As a norwood 1.5, I implore you guys to regularly check your temples and crown if you have a habit of growing out your hair or not cutting it at all. I was in disbelief with how it just creeped up on me, only noticing the recession when I put pulled my hair back at the temples. Really didn't mean for this to come out longer as it did, but I felt the context was necessary and maybe a younger lurker could get something out of it as I did, regularly browsing wizchan and later magicchan 18-24. Don't really post on these type of boards, since at this point, brooding/self-pitying is completely ineffectual for me and if things are that bad for me again, it is more sensible I use one of my older relatives ID, buy the latest peaceful pill handbook, order nembutal from their sources, have it delivered, buy some chocolate, and just trek through a nice secluded trail, sit there, and do myself in.
>>2209 >Thankfully, I was able to reverse most of it Any tips? Minoxidil? I think I may be receding.
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>>2209 To be honest, I've dealing with those kinds of feelings for a long time. Like you, I'm don't have as much experience in life as people my own age (I'm 30 years old), which can make thing difficult when you're forced to interact with other people. However, when it comes to my appearance, I have the opposite problem from you, I've always looked older than I am. I hate that, but over the years, I've learned to deal with my problem.
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>>2210 Honestly, man. I'm not gonna bullshit you. IF you can pull off the completely shaved look or have some chance of coming across as intimidating/gruff and don't mind having to spend several minutes every few days shaving your head, so you don't get the gross friar boy cut or horsehoof, JUST SHAVE IT ALL OFF. I tried shaving it all off recently just to see what I have to work with if I stop treatment or looking ahead 20 years ahead, and it just does not work for me, a baby-faced, 5'7 man with the body frame of a mannequin. But here's what I do/use. This will only be mostly applicable to Americans: >1x Finasteride daily (Redpill on the left) >1.5 Weekly microneedling on the entire head with M8 Dr Pen using 16 Needle cartridges (Just use youtube guides)[buy the Pen and cartridges on EBAY from a seller who will ship it to you FROM the US, or else you will mail months for your order. I bought the Pen for about 70 bucks(JAN2022)and 100PC 16 pin M8 cartridges in bulk for little over a hundred bucks(FEB 2022). Soak them in alcohol for a bit, let it dry, use, and dispose the cartridge when done.) >Minoxidil spread across entire head once before going to bed(it is recommended you do this twice a day for best results, I do it once and got respectable results). Foam = Dries Faster, more expensive Topical Solution = Cheaper, oily and takes slightly longer to dry. >Nizoral/any shampoo with at least 1 percent Ketoconazole 2-3 times a week, leave it on the Scalp for a few minutes, you can use that claw accessory but it isn't necessary. This stuff really just helps prevent dandruff from forming from the Minoxidil. Since my original doctor(old insurance plan)was more than familiar with my Depression/anxiety, there's no way he was going to prescribe me Finasteride/Dutasteride, so I jumped on Keep's 3-month trial of Finasteride for a couple months until I found a new doctor through a new insurance plan because I got kicked out of my parent's family work insurance plan at 26. Once I found a new doctor, I let him know my past history with ADHD/Anxiety, omitting Depression since that would have ruined my chance of getting prescribed Finasteride. I got prescribed Finasteride and I ended up canceling my keeps subscription before the next payment, I just told them "No particular reason, just not interested in taking it at the moment" and the young woman thankfully got the hint and wasn't gonna haggle with me about reinstating my sub. I get my prescriptions from COSTCO as a COSTCO MEMBER, since I only pay like 10 bucks(not using my insurance, United Health, since it is not affilated with costco) for a 3-month supply of Finasteride VERSUS the $300~ my current insurance would have me paying on places like CVS, Walgreens, etc... Just get a Costco membership, you will make back the 60 bucks you spent on the membership easily from what you save on Gasoline, some expensive prescriptions like FINASTERIDE/DUTASTERIDE, and the kirkland minoxidil treatments cheaper than anywhere else. Just be aware of the possible side effects, I didn't get GYNO or LIMP-DICK, but after the 6-month mark I did notice my anxiety/minor-Depression were noticeably excarberated. I had to take up running regularly, intaking a slew of vitamins/supplements, and Atmoxetine/Bupropion to counteract the mental sides. I also tried Dutasteride[yellow pill on the Right](An incomparably more powerful DHT-Inhibitor than Finasteride, THIS is what you take when you REALLY REALLY want REGROWTH or have SEVERE MPB) but it gave me the worst the mental side effects a drug has given me in my entire life, so I gave up with taking it at all. I took it for 4 days straight and then stopped because it gave me the worst Suicidal Depression/Anxiety I had since my late teens. I also tried taking Dutasteride every other day, 3X a week, but the catastrophic mental effects would creep up not long after. None of my doctors would have prescribed me DUTASTERIDE(for good reason) so I ended getting a 6-month prescription plan shipped to me from a site called, Medical Wellness Center for around $60. I took the prescription to COSTCO where I paid $14 bucks for a 30-day supply. I saw good results using all the above combined(except Dutasteride) in four months, and the results only continue to improve. Figure I will take advantage of the shaved scalp to Microneedle/Minoxidil easier for the summer, before the Fall semester starts. Hope this helps.
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>>2210 Also, if you can, get your hormones/blood checked from your GP. It will give a good clue on how much those does drugs may effect you. >>2211 >which can make thing difficult when you're forced to interact with other people >I've learned to deal with my problem Yes, I've been forced to resign from a couple of jobs because of not being able to meld with my coworkers. Blue-collar workers I've personally found are not very Non-Neurotypical friendly and I just find them mostly annoying/boring(mostly talk about their kids/wife,sports,surface level interests/music, rarely passionate about anything, drinks and/or smoke regularly, you know the type...) How have you dealt with similar, if you don't mind me asking? Been doing a lot of short-term gig work until recently, so I did come across some issues occasionally.
>>2214 Rereading my previous post, I think I exaggerated a bit. My situation has little to do with yours. I'm a freelancer and I didn't have much interaction with people outside my immediate family. I greet my neighbors when I see them and sometimes I talk to my classmates (who only talk about their jobs and how busy they are). Sometimes I have problems exchanging e-mails with some clients; I can't imagine how I'd feel if I had to deal with co-workers. I'm sorry that my previous post wasn't clear enough. One thing that has worked for me in the past is to just listen to their complaints and opinions, as if you were their confidant. If you're asked about your private life, answer with vague answers.
>>2207 Sorry for the late reply, I haven't had much energy lately. >By the way, I read somewhere that it's easy to give up coffee. Is that true? In my case I have to say it was. Though I did have a slight headache the day after I quit, that was about it for withdrawal. The most difficult part was ending the habit/ritual of treating myself to espresso with milk and muscovado sugar throughout the day. It had formed quite a large part of my dietary intake and the preparation let me break the monotony of daily living. So stopping left me a bit of kilter.
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Apparently, one of my nieces tried to kill herself yesterday. Her boyfriend phoned my sister and told her what happened. Luckily, she survived and now she feels better. My mother and my sister visited her today to check on her, but when they came back, they started to criticize my niece and even compared her to her father (according to them, her father has a reputation for playing the victim and lying). I tried to tell them that they were being too rough on her, but they wouldn't listen to me. I know my mother and my sister love her, but I guess they are angry because they think my niece is badmouthing them to her psychiatrist and her boyfriend. I don’t know what to think about this. She used to live with us just a year ago, but she has changed a lot since she moved out. I just hope she gets better soon.
>>2222 When I tried getting on disability, they sent me to this loser psychologist who clearly wasn't getting many actual patients in his poorly-rated, shoddily-furnished clinic. The bastard was unbelievably rude and it was clear he held a bias for those trying to get in the system. When I read his report, he lied about almost everything and his "evaluation" was clearly written to devalue my case. The worst thing, there's real no recourse for victims of these scumbags. Since they are not your "real" doctor, they can't be held liable to accusations of malpractice, unless they do something blatant like physically assault you.
>>2223 That's awful mate. I'm so sorry. I've been to practices like that and it really is terrible. I wasn't treated nearly as bad as you and I still have a phobia about those types even now. So that sort of treatment was what I was expecting. Then again I don't really know how to read people. I haven't read the actual report, so they might have been just pretending so they could write something bad later. Sorry I even brought it up, I was intending it to be a sort of funny self deprecating anecdote but I fucked it up and instead it just stirred up bad memories.
I have been reading a book about the history of the region where I live and it's kind of unintentionally funny. I wasn't expecting much because it's not very populous and hasn't been settled (by people with written language) for long, but it's more interesting than I expected. The place is basically propped up by expenditures from the central government and it turns out that this has been so since the earliest attempts to develop it. Something about the land deceives newcomers into thinking that it has a great deal of potential but inevitably it just consumes all resources invested in it and sends everyone broke (and in earlier times many were speared by indigenous people). It's kind of amusing to read about time after time some new development scheme being hatched, only to be beset by problems to the point where the thing fails completely and everyone goes broke (they're lucky, in the early days many were speared by indigenous people). I guess hope springs eternal because somehow nobody ever learns from the mistakes of those that came before, even when they are warned, and there's always some new grand scheme waiting to soak up other people's money.
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>>2224 No no, you're fine m8. It was so long ago, I don't really have much pains about it anymore. I've been really fortunate to have my faith in doctors/Psychs/etc be rejuvenated because of the team I have helping me now. Most people are SHIT, but the few gems really push my suicide further away. >>2216 >One thing that has worked for me in the past is to just listen to their complaints and opinions, as if you were their confidant Dale Carnegie! Yeah, that's usually enough to keep you floating, especially if you can empathize and contribute on what they're sharing. Some jobs, you really can't just keep to yourself or show any signs of neuroticism. I've found when it comes to ruined first-impressions, only the most open-minded, kindhearted, and amiable people will give you a second chance. I showed a lot of "weakness" in this one blue-collar job and I was basically ran out because I knew my coworkers weren't going to "waste" their time helping/training me. It's a shame because I was really passionate about the industry and job. I was even asked to reconsider from the HR member who hired me and the global safety director engineer, the only people who I felt really saw my potential/who I was, but I was forced to ignore them because there was no way I could of told them, "uh, yeah, I quit because most of my coworkers dislike me and don't want to bother helping me, and my brown-nosed trainer who has enormous amounts of social leverage who was so supportive if me, has now joined them in talking shit behind my back and is reluctant in helping me. Look at me! I'm the workplace pariah already!" So I stuck with: "emergency health issues" I can't remember the last time I felt so powerless but maybe it was for the best. Ha...ha
>>2226 It's crazy how much in life is down to the luck of meeting the right people.
>>2213 2210 here. Thanks a lot, mage! I'll definitely look into all of this.
>>2199 My thoughts exactly. The future of society looks bleak, but it's worthwhile to live in if one can get by without too much of a struggle. Though I will say that "nonproductivity is toxic" is too broad. In my view, while some productivity is essential to prevent one's self from decaying, too much "hard work" is even worse than laziness. What is the point of constantly treating the present as a means to an end? I made that mistake when I pushed myself and realized that the ambitious mentality I formed in the process made me not even get what I wanted at the end when I started to lose my drive and became aware of what I was chasing. It becomes a cycle of ambition that one has to get off sooner or later unless one wants to be stuck in it, forever neglecting the present moment. Many top elites probably have a worse quality of life than loners working solitary jobs because they chose the path of ambition.
>>2230 You don't get to be "the Great" of anything focusing on quality of life. Not even a great mage or wizard.
80 lb of sand in a hiking backpack. 1300 total steps on stairs. I didn't remove it for rest between sets, standing and walking around a bit, maybe 400 total steps on flat ground. Afterward, I took it off and did a very small assortment of pull-ups, chin-ups, and push-ups, for a combined total of 72. >Sunday morning 156, 78, 78 >Monday morning 156, 78, 78 >Tuesday morning 182, 78, 78 >Wednesday morning 182, 78, 78 I feel I could keep going, but that'll be all for this week to be safe. Taking it easy next week, to be extra safe. Turning 33.
>>2253 That's impressive! Are you used to doing those exercises?
>>2254 Somewhat. My dad noted that my breathing has become less heavy during exercise. Previously I had always kept each foot flat while raising the opposite leg. This time it was how I normally walk, propelling myself with each foot while raising the opposite leg, carrying the weight on the balls of my feet.
>>2256 That sounds crazy. Was this the first time you had a near-death experience? What were you doing when that happened? Also, why were you wearing a bunch of glass jewelry? I hope the experience didn't leave any lasting scars.
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I was sent a new cellphone (not smartphone) for free because they're discontinuing the less potent cancer waves and I guess my old cellphone can't process the newer, more potent cancer waves. It seems worse in every way and now the signal at home is 0-2 bars.
>>2264 I’ve always had bad phone connection and slow mobile internet wherever I’ve lived. Different networks, different places, different phones. I don’t really understand how people have good signal, maybe my hands are faraday cages.
>>2264 >>a new cellphone (not smartphone) That sucks, they at least sent me a budget refurbished smart phone Didn't use it though, it was riddled with spyware, hate cellphones anyways.
Found a black cat yesterday, no collar, sitting in a chair in my neighbor's backyard. She was nice. Their dogs started barking. I picked her up and she gently swiped at my face once but remained purring. I took her inside to try for a better look at a spot of matted fur near her ear. She wandered around the house and ate some food. She ignored the water. Before I could really check the spot she noticed my cat watching from afar and began growling, only pausing to hiss; my cat whining in refrain. I tried to calm her but she scratched my hand up good. I closed her in the room she had walked into and shooed my cat away. I brought the food and water outside, then came back for her. She scratched my hand a little more but was perfectly placid being carried back outside. She ate some more food and continued ignoring the water. I tried to pet her but she was having none of it and sauntered into a shrub. Visited her twice today with food and water. She ate and drank. The spot near her ear seems okay. Got some more scratches, this time because she was too excited and being playful. Not hopeful about taking her in after the reaction to my cat, but she could stay in the basement if she needs inside when it gets colder.
>>2267 I could have used the better camera, hate touchscreens though. I've been considering becoming more indifferent toward spyware. Either that or quitting technology altogether (the only winning move). Not that I'd ever fully embrace spyware. If I had one it would be stored in another room 99% of the time.
>>2268 Belongs to another neighbor. Negligent to let an outdoor cat appear to be a stray, but at least she won't risk freezing to death.
Ended up buying a used gpu to fix up a computer I salvaged from the trash. Thought I'd play games again if I had a computer that could, but I can't care enough to bother. I don't really care to do much anymore.
My phone got cut off completely because I didn't buy prepaid phone credit for three months and they claimed that they "deleted the number". I rang up to try to reconnect it and they lied and said they have never done that and that it has always been cut off after three months (it used to be six months and you could reconnect it with a new SIM). Well, not like I really used it, probably the most annoying thing is the places that lock you in to SMS verification. Guess it's a sign to try to minimise my footprint and get rid of as much of that stuff as I can.
>>2280 I ordered a new SIM and the package came without the SIM card. I guess someone stole it out of the envelope as it was partly unsealed. I shouldn't have even tried.
>>2277 Did you have any games in mind? And how did you just find a computer in the trash?
>>2282 >Did you have any games in mind? I didn't, only the notion of 3D games. I haven't gamed in a decade excepting some low-spec 2d/retro stuff, so I don't know anything bout modern games. Though since I made the previous post I did manage to play a recent game called "Stray". Liked it enough I managed to finish it. Since I've gotten older what I like now seems to be more casual games with interesting art, mechanics, or story. >And how did you just find a computer in the trash There was an event where old electronics and stuff (e-waste) were collected for disposal. People left them out by the curb, so I went around and scavenged stuff. A lot of them were broken or garbage, but some was repairable or partly working.
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>>2277 i know the feeling, i have a computer with a gtx 1080 for some months now. Highest end GPU I ever owned, and I played only one game from 2006 and then lost the motivation.
>>2290 >>2294 I also did the same, years ago. I upgraded my GPU and then only played GTA IV a few times (which was already 5 or 6 years old). I don't even have a desktop anymore that I could upgrade, I just lie in bed with a laptop that's too old and slow to play any games.
Here's one reason to have a beefy graphics card and hi-res screen: https://emulation.gametechwiki.com/index.php/CRT-Royale#System_Requirements
Sick late last year. Sick again now, but still got some exercise this week. >Tuesday 80 lb of sand for 208 steps on stairs. 2 pull-ups, 2 chin-ups, ~40 push-ups total. >Wednesday 80 lb of sand for 156 steps on stairs. 2 pull-ups, 2 chin-ups, ~40 push-ups total.
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I've been using Linux Mint for the last few years. I also have Windows 10 installed in my PC because I have to use Photoshop every now and then. To be honest, I give it a try to Linux Mint because I thought it would motivate me to take programming more seriously, but so far, it hasn't worked (that's my fault, obviously). It's a good OS, but I must admit that it's annoying to have to switch between Mint and W10 depending on what I have to do. I also have problems with my internet connection regularly when I'm in Mint, but I guess that's also my fault for not asking for help in their official forums. Personally, I would only recommend any Linux distribution to two types of people: programmers who want to explore more complex areas of computing, and the kind of casual users who just need a computer to write documents, use the Internet and maybe watch a movie or listen to music. Anyway, don't pay too much attention to me. I really don't know as much about these subjects as I should.
>>2310 I switched to linux exclusively around '16, for a mix of reasons, like paranoia about M$ spying on me, and the fact that windows was so bloated and all my hardware is ancient. I'm pretty happy with it so far. I run windows programs, mostly games, using wine, which while it's still pretty finicky works most of the time now as long as you are willing to use 3rd party tools like winetricks. If I really need to, sometimes I'll even just set up a windows VM and run things in that. Though not too common when there's broken or unexpected behavior, usually with an afternoon of googling I can fix it. As strange as it sounds I actually kind of like the occasional problem, since fixing it makes me feel like I'm a 1337 H4X0R who knows his way around a computer even though I'm nothing of the sort. That said, I agree with your recommendation. I'm mostly "The kind of casual user who just need a computer to write documents, use the Internet and maybe watch a movie or listen to music." I don't do any of the sorts of things people actually need windows for.
>>2311 >the fact that windows was so bloated and all my hardware is ancient I know what you mean. When I decided to install W10 on my PC, I not only looked for the most basic version but I also took the time to debloat it. From what I've read, Windows has a lot of useless features that negatively affect the performance of your PC and even your Internet connection. I tried to use Wine to run Photoshop, and while it worked, it was constantly buggy. However, I have read that it works quite well with all types of games, so possibly the problem is me and the program I want to use. I can't say personally because most of the games I've played lately have source codes or can be played with emulators. Anyway, rereading my previous post, I feel like I overreacted a bit. Despite the fact that I still have some problems with it, Linux Mint is a good distribution. It is easy to use and lightweight. In some ways, it reminds me of Windows when it wasn't so intrusive and demanding.
I'm extremely slow, every task takes much longer than the average person. Tasks become even longer while carrying 80 lb of sand, the more time passes the more difficult it is to use arms and fingers. One hour of preparing food makes 520 steps on stairs seem like carrying a backpack of air. My shoulders are very sore, maybe no more exercise this week. >>2310 I thought it would motivate me to study programming too, but there isn't anything I have a strong desire to make, plus I didn't get far in math, didn't even finish high school. I'll stick to drawing, it's hard enough, and not go in a hundred different directions trying to find purpose in life.
>>2313 >My shoulders are very sore, maybe no more exercise this week I don't know anything about fitness, but I think you should take a break and find a less intense exercise routine, at least until you recover. >I'll stick to drawing Funnily enough, I also ended up focusing on drawing instead of programming after installing Linux Mint. In my case, this makes me feel guilty because I'm trying to get a degree in Computer Engineering, but I'm not really passionate about that. Also, I understand what you mean. Computer science has so many branches and each one of them is constantly growing. It's hard to know what to do when faced with such a scenario, especially when you have no real passion for programming.
>>2314 >I think you should take a break and find a less intense exercise routine, at least until you recover. Feels okay now, but you're right, I'll be careful this week. Today I did steps on stairs: 156 at 130 lb (80 back and 25 per hand), 156 at 80 lb, 156 at 50 lb (25 per hand) before lunch. Proper weights would probably be kinder to my grip, but I'm using what's available (unopened boxes of cat litter). I was going to do the same before dinner, but won't, will rest tomorrow, and see how I feel Tuesday. Good thing I checked back here before being stupid. >I'm trying to get a degree in Computer Engineering, but I'm not really passionate about that. You wouldn't be the first person to switch, not that I have any idea for a better degree. You wouldn't be the first person to get a degree and pursue an unrelated career. Not knowing how far along you've gotten, and with no life experience, I have no wisdom to offer you. Unless I become good at drawing, socialize on garbage like twitter or discord, and luck into a modest following, my future is manual labor, homeless, or suicide. I could've started out a drawfag very early on 4chan, but wasted my time not drawing.
>>2315 How long have you been exercising and have you noticed good results so far? I must admit that I have noticed that every so often you post your progress, which makes me think that you are taking this quite seriously. I must admit that I am a little envious. I constantly come across people on the internet who talk about the benefits of exercising and I bet what they say is true. >You wouldn't be the first person to switch I'm afraid it's a little late for that. I'm nearing the end of my degree, so I guess the best thing to do would be to keep working on that for another year. I make some money drawing, but it's really not that much. I don't know if I dedication or better social skills, but I can't find a way to earn as much money as other artists (anyway, I'm not that good at drawing, to be honest).
>>2316 >How long have you been exercising and have you noticed good results so far? I must admit that I have noticed that every so often you post your progress, which makes me think that you are taking this quite seriously. Hard to say, I should've written it down. Maybe started at 30 or 32 and I'll be 34 this year. Been taking it slow and fallen off more than a few times. My arms and legs are bigger, somewhat defined. I've gained weight, eat larger portions, but my belly may have shrunk a little because I think my navel isn't as deep. 5'8", 190 lb. Losing weight isn't my goal. Gaining strength and endurance is my goal. Provided I haven't went too long without exercise, I don't pull my leg muscle stretching in bed. That used to happen often, occasionally multiple times if the first wasn't bad enough to fully wake me up, and be limping for days after. It still happens if I cough very hard while seated. My ankle locks up occasionally, has happened on the stairs while carrying weight, but I can recover my footing now, whereas in the past it caused me to kick a chair and break my toe. I would say I'm on the brink of serious, getting proper weights and doing some real heavy lifting will be taking it seriously. >I must admit that I am a little envious. I constantly come across people on the internet who talk about the benefits of exercising and I bet what they say is true. Stop being envious and start doing. Any small amount puts you ahead of where you were previously. It's much easier than programming and drawing, and takes little time to exhaust your muscles. I'm still depressed and low energy. Maybe less so, maybe not, but at least I'm stronger. Humans are very weak and inefficient. Without inventions, which most of us (myself included) don't deeply understand, we're inferior to all other animals because we exist with the bare minimum of physicality and zero primitive knowledge. You don't have to become a strongman, just fight off frailty. For too long I neglected my mind and my body. >I'm afraid it's a little late for that. I'm nearing the end of my degree, so I guess the best thing to do would be to keep working on that for another year. I make some money drawing, but it's really not that much. Then don't worry about passion and don't doubt yourself. That's great. You can focus on programming while drawing on the side, and if you ever hit it big switch focus to drawing, or combine them and do visual novels or games. They're good complimentary skills. You don't have to make the next big thing, maybe you will, but one moderate success could snowball into a series of modest successes and a comfortable, happy life. >I don't know if I dedication or better social skills, but I can't find a way to earn as much money as other artists (anyway, I'm not that good at drawing, to be honest). I pay less attention to online art circles than in the past, but browsing 4chan archives I've seen mentioned some popular twitter artists with drawings that range from shit to meh. Dedication, socialization, pandering, shilling, trend chasing, quantity over quality (within reason). The biggest ingredient is luck. Most people won't admit the importance of luck because they think it diminishes the hard work required to develop skill. "I got to where I am entirely by my own willpower." Not my thing, but an artist making loads of vtuber fanart before it exploded in popularity would've been likely to catch that wave and be propelled to popularity himself. It's luck to get in before. It's luck to stand out after. It's luck to be noticed by or befriend someone already popular willing to actually try using his success to help you succeed.
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I did something terriblly stupid today. Since my sister had to got to work and my niece accompanied my mother to dialysis, I was home alone with our dog and cat. I had breakfast, washed some dishes, cleaned some things and ironed some clothes. After that, I decided to take a bath and shave. While I was shaving, I heard something, but since my dog didn't react to the noise, I assumed it was my imagination. Soon after, I heard another noise, so I decided to go investigate. That's when I saw a thief coming from my older sister's room. It was a tanned man between 45 and 50 years old, relatively well-dressed; he looked nervous. To be honest, I didn't know how to react; I was shirtless, without my glasses and with shaving cream on my face. He told me that he didn't steal anything and that he just wanted something to feed his children. That's when I did the stupidest thing I could do: I went to get some bread for the guy. I don't know why I did it. Maybe I thought it was better to please him in case he was crazy? When I returned with some bread, I saw how he escaped through a window using a wire as a rope. For some reason, I threw him the bread to take it. He thanked me on his knees. I looked at the rooms where he was and found a big mess. Luckily, it seems that the only thing he stole were some eggs. I told my family about it and they took it well, but I bet this only gives them more reason to see me as a child. Anyway, I can't deny that I didn't act as I should have.
>>2329 It seems really silly but I imagine I would probably do the same sort of thing. Just don't have the right reactions to things. At least you didn't get hurt or anything.
>At least you didn't get hurt or anything That's what my family said. To be honest, at first I felt like they were treating me like a little kid, but now I understand that this is the natural reaction to a robbery. By the way, the thief didn't just take some eggs. My older sister went through her room and didn't find her jewelry box, where her jewelry and her daughter's jewelry were. I know it wasn't my fault, but I can't help but feel bad.
>>2331 I guess thieves have to be quite crafty and able to prey on people's goodwill to get by. Having some dumb story about only looking for food might work well-enough on well-meaning people to let him escape. I don't really know what to say about feeling like you're being treated like a kid because I often feel the same way, and not just from my family. I think there is just something missing and people can somehow automatically tell that I'm incapable of taking the lead on anything.
It's already getting hot here. It sucks. I'm no good with heat.
I've been trying to get into metal again, but I often have trouble differentiating one song from another. And I'm not even listening to some particularly weird or extreme band, but Sodom. Maybe I'm just not paying enough attention. >>2335 That's a really nice image. I thought it was a photo at first, but when I zoomed in on it, I could see that it was a digital illustration. And I agree with you, it sucks when the hot season starts. It's been hot here lately, but not as hot as it was a few months ago.

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