I'm just so tired. My body hurts all the time now and I have no energy.
I don't even do anything with my time, I just refresh the same couple of websites where the same old posters are gradually getting older and dying, and daydream all the time about escaping to somewhere else, someplace cool where I could live alone in peace and quiet, but I do nothing about it. Maladaptive daydreaming, I guess. I've been doing it for decades. I don't have the energy to move, anyway. I could come up with dozens of little roadblocks to stop me from doing anything, where overcoming any of them would sap so much of my scarce energy that I would just grind to a halt afterwards.