>>2379 Welcome back >>2382 I am 35 and don't have a passion, too. Unfortunately it does not just magically turn up with age.

An update to this: >>1706. I finally got to the end of the book. It only took two years and starting anew three or four times (only to quietly give up halfway through the book). But in the end it was really very good and a pleasant way to pass the time.

Everyone made an effort to post more after the talk in the pinned thread. I wasn't up to doing the same. Sorry.

>>2390 Don't worry. From what I've seen these past few years, this board always has a small spike in activity every so often, I guess none of us have much to say. By the way, I found that first video almost hypnotic. There is something about the way the water looks that is almost surreal.

I've been dealing with tremendous brainfog the last years, my ability to communicate my thoughts and have normal, fluid chats is nearly non existent. Being ESL has something to do with it, but it happens in my native language as well. More than being ignorant in either language, I'm afraid it's simply the effects of prolonged isolation. I talk to nobody, I know no one, I do nothing other than stress and worry about things that are ultimately beyond my control. I tell myself that I can endure the pain of loneliness but my mind and brain betray me by having dreams of really old classmates or anime girls, it's obvious it's my subconscious crying in pain trying to fill the void with whatever it can lest I go insane. My room is a mess, I decided enough was enough and made some deep cleaning and renovation. I'm not finished yet but hopefully I will before November. It took me a long time to separate and take out the trash. It paid off though, literally, because I found some old vidya I sold on ebay and marketplace, and with the money I put together a new (used, heh) mid range Skylake workstation, I have yet to find a suitable graphics card for it though (aiming for a used gtx 1650) And I still have to update my ancient laptop to W10 or W11. It's really old, but still good enough for basic use. All this makes me wonder, where did time go? It's something I see others express concern about, that the whole covid/lockdown years feeling like a fever dream. That's exactly how I feel, it's like I'm picking up my life right where I left it during '19 Q4 and '20 Q1, which for me was a double whammy because that's when I was putting myself back together after experiencing deep depression and some sort of mild derealiztion during '14 - '17. Basically I feel stuck in 2012. I've barely kept up with my media backlog, I'm so out of the loop in basically all aspects that I feel a bit alienated amongst anons too (eagerly awaiting new Madoka movie tho) So things are kind of normalizing, mentally at least. I've been chronically sick for almost 2 years now. I will not get into theories, all I know is most other people, of all ages incomes and fitness levels seem to have some sort of illness going on too. That matters to me because depending on what is causing that, I may just throw in the towel and become even more reclusive that I was, stop looking for a job and just wait for death. My plan was quitting imageboards, or really any sort of distraction or parasocial or make-believe friends or community. My logic was it'd force me to seek the real thing instead. Needless to say it didn't work. Quite the contrary, my decaying health plus the total isolation made me deeply contemplate death. Made me realize I have almost no attachments, so the thought of death, with my chest pains and pulsating tinnitus was constant. Listening my own blood swooshing around my head with each heartbeat. Scary. The imageboards I once knew long abandoned or their population visibly changed. The world around us quickly changing, while I remain paralyzed by anxiety/fatigue and well on my way towards an early death. Unequipped to deal with facing both my rapidly approaching mortality, and the absurd meaninglessness that is staying alive just because I'm afraid of pulling the trigger. I don't know, I barely vent post. Each time I did I ended up feeling a bit worse than before, but I also know very well bottling things up is a very bad idea. Speaking of which, I was forced to reconnect with one of my aunts, who I'm not exactly fond of because reasons. I ended up saying a bit more than I'd have wanted to, and learning more than I needed. Turns out suicide runs in my family ain't that friggin awesome? It's almost like God is telling me what ya waiting for anon? Ah damn. Wish I could forget she said that. And I hate depending on others. Anyway, I still fondly remember the wizardchan of the past, and magicchan. I never posted much, because I just had nothing to share, this fever dream like feeling actually started around the mid '10s for me when one of my parents passed away unexpectedly but not really, shortly after I dropped out of college and realized I was not meant to be normal or have friends and that even a humble life of stocking shelves at nightshifts would be harder to attain than initially thought. And then, well, whole covid and basically realizing there is a real chance my will be absolute fucking shit forever, that I will never move out, or have friends. I hope not, but prospects are not looking good. During the last year and in an effort to improve my fatigue I tried delving into nutrition as deep as I could. I've been experimenting with some supps, but no noots because I am poor. I genuinely think I've been living with moderate undiagnosed adhd, how else could things get this bad? How else could I have procrastinated so many things for so long? How come megadosing some b vitamins and other stuff is what partly got me out of the rumination/scrolling/hoarding hellish cycle I've been fighting so hard to get out of? Hopefully as I learn more I will be able to join the workforce again. Anons always advise to just start doing something, but sometimes a lifetime of poor habits, spiritual malaise, rejection, poverty, scatterbrain, hoarding and all that is bad for getting things done makes it really, really hard to keep it up. Guess "clean your room", literally, was the best advice all along. My new computer should be arriving next week or so, I wanted to get a dremel too and make another desk for it, and another smaller desk to finally get on with my board repair program I've been putting off for almost ten years. I follow every now and then a very popular electronics technician, in one of his latest videos he talks about how the industry has changed since he started, and how he feels it'd be impossible for newbies to make it big like he did. All this makes me feel as if we're entering an era where any sort of mobility has become impossible, not social, financial nor professional. The guys at the top entered a matthews effect loop where the wonders of techonology make them exponentially richer/smarter/well-connected, and those at the bottom are left just scraps if lucky at all. That is something I'm sure has a lot to do with the percieved decay of imageboards.. I'm so late to the game, but it is what it is. Who the fuck am I right? Nothing. Nobody. No skills. Zero friends. Zero money. All the low hanging fruit has been taken, and all solid friend groups are closed off. Right now I just wish I had a friend, but I'm old and dumb, yet I haven't given up. Thanks for reading and thanks to modmin for maintaining this place. Goodnight anony.

>>2378 I just lost $1000 like a fucking retard.

I've seen a lot of people talking about a series called Helluva Boss on various parts of the internet, so I decided to give it a try. The cartoon is about a group of mercenaries living in hell. You only have to watch one episode to realize that the people behind the series are big fans of Invader Zim. Not only do several of the characters resemble the aliens from that series, but also one of them is played by the voice actor who played Zim. Anyway, I found the series to be somewhat mediocre. Visually it's much better than other adult animated series, but many characters have too much detail. They almost look like OCs created by some DeviantArt or Tumblr user. I found most of the jokes unfunny and the characters get annoying rather quickly. I have only seen the first season, but I understand that many people are not enjoying the second season because it is too focused on the characters' romantic relationships and other drama. I will possibly watch the rest of the episodes, but I don't recommend it. >>2363 I lost track of those movies after the third installment. I remember the first one was pretty good. The second and third were less interesting, but still fun.

It reminds me a lot of Unfriended. It lacks depth and felt superficial, but internet-related horrors always find a soft spot in me. 6/10

A well done flick, in my opinion. They kept it real simple but did a good job of keeping it interesting, at least to watch until the end. I wanted to go to sleep at some point because I was feeling tired, but I kept going because I wanted to see the end and it didn't disappoint. The whole "is it real or is it happening in my head" is well done in my opinion and between its back and forth it lets you wander on a nice trip.

>>2370 Watch Murder Drones next lol

>>2388 Not him, but I just watched that. I don't have good taste, but I liked it. More than a few of the plot points are very normie highschooler experience focused, so I'd think plenty here might hate it though. The animation was pretty darn good for amateur stuff. Same with the voicework. The pacing was refreshingly brisk, with little to no wasted air time. The jokes are rapid-fire so even when they fall flat it's not too bad. Some of the characters, like N, were super "moe", not something I'd usually use to describe western cartoon characters. All in all something I'd consider very watchable.

>>2184 Most people that write those types of posts are doing it to cope with their own depression. They write it for you, but in reality they're trying to pick themselves up. A lot of "advice" is also just depressed people repeating the same shit, trying to make themselves believe that's how life works and it will get better.

>>1844 to feel more blessed

Sorry.

Sorry. I'll try to never again make a post. There is something inside me, I can be free in a way other people can't imagine, but I have been dragged down my whole life by things that should be unimportant, that shouldn't matter. Something went wrong in my life, I know it's not my fault but that doesn't change the fact I failed. I just wanted to do what I was supposed to do. I can't explain this, it's impossible to communicate, but I can see really, really nice dreams, and I wanted to explore them and show them. I just love dreaming, imagining, creating, thinking, I can do so every moment of my day and every day. This doesn't make any sense, it's the kind of thing that could only make sense through actions and works, but I'll never get to do so, so I have to try explaining it in words, but it's impossible. It's just that there are things I enjoy learning about, and things I wanted to try, but I'll never be allowed to. I wanted to show what I'm like, I wanted to be myself, but I'll never be allowed to. I just wanted to get into math and cs, or drawing, or music, at a very young age and dedicate every instant of my life to that just one thing. I wish I could go back to nursery school and get into mathematics back then. There's something very wrong with my brain, I'm very bad at certain things, but somehow I really enjoy other certain things in a way normal people can't enjoy, so I wanted to be free, and dedicate myself to something important, that only I could do. And even if I'm bad at everything and have no real skills, I still at least enjoy learning and trying, and could keep trying my whole life. But this life was a prison, I just never got to pursue my dreams. It's too late now, I'm not going to make it, I'm stabilizing my mental situation and trying to sort out my life but it's too late, my world is falling apart and there's nothing I can do. I don't know, it hurts, no matter how many times I try, I can't convey this. It's just that I feel I never got to be myself, like I was supposed to show what I really am, but I never got a chance like everyone else. Like something went very wrong. Like God abandoned me. I just wanted to be free, I wanted to try, I wanted to be myself, but everything went wrong, it's like I never existed, as if I was never born in the first place. I just wanted to be free and be myself. I feel like in an invisible cage, hitting my fist on the wall and screaming, but no one can see or hear me. And I feel like if I could break out of this cage, I would be the happiest person on the planet, and I could share my happiness with many people and make them happy too. But that won't happen. I'll just die here. It really hurts. I can't explain what's going on. I keep trying to but I can't. It's a horrible feeling. I want my spirit to be free but I'll always be confined. I feel like my life was supposed to be different but something went wrong and now I'll die like I never existed. Sorry for having made so many posts. I know I'm not welcome on this or any imageboard. But I felt like I had to say something. I'll never be free and I'll never get to live my life, I was born in a prison, so I wanted to at least leave a note that I existed, even though I still couldn't communicate what I am, what were my dreams and objectives, and what I could have done. Sorry. It sucks, I can't communicate what I feel, I just wanted to learn a lot and make a lot of things, I wanted to see how far I could go, I wanted to develop and achieve my full potential, I wanted to live in my own world and explore it fully. It really hurts. I tried to communicate but I can't anymore, I always end up making the same post, it's impossible to convey what I really mean. I'll just endure whatever's left of my prison life all alone.

>>2395 I should say sorry for being unkind to you previously. I'm sorry. I am not good at dealing with the pain of others. I cannot understand your burdens though I can see they are crushing you. My words mean nothing but I am envious of what you have. There is nothing inside me. I am just a soulless doll. To keep beautiful worlds within oneself, as you do, is something I've always wanted but can never have.

>>2327 I feel the same way you do. I visit several IBs daily, but very rarely post or connect with their users. Once in a while I find something funny or interesting, but that doesn't really justify the habit.

>>2326 >Wasted my youth indoors fucking around on imageboards with people who hated me Why do you feel like people on imageboards hated you? Were you avatarfagging, tripping, or had a really distince retarded posting style. I've legit been gangstalked just for not being part of discord groups and not affiliated with anyone made me an easy target I guess.

>>2344 Sorry I do not communicate well. The users of those sites didn't really "know" me or who I was. They hated losers like me. They would have hated me if they knew me, but because of the anonymity they didn't. Only when I made the mistake of revealing anything about myself did they know to show their displeasure at my existence. We were not friends, or comrades, or like-minded, or similar, or anything of that sort. We were enemies calling out to each other separated only by a thin fog of war.

Online: bad loneliness, e-schizophrenia from bombardment of outside images/sounds/thoughts. Offline: good loneliness, quiet mind.

Really feeling that thread, ouch. >>2327 > going offline would be great but I keep finding excuses not to. I don't even come up with excuses to stay online, I just don't know what to do offline so I am online. Honestly, I hate it. The only things that are still enjoyable for me is downloading something I was searching for, looking up some information and the few posts a year when I feel really bad and try to cling to some stranger on an imageboard, who more or less understands me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjTph0xBC1A https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQ431BwUpFc https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MoWwzbJrqgs Twenty year anniversary of Bionicle was today, I don't have any builds anywhere near finished to share and I'd rather not show off pictures of a bunch of random arms and guys with no legs, but i did want to make a post at least. Hopefully the games are good when they're done, Masks of Power Legacy was a bit empty feeling and the combat wasn't good but it was cool to just walk around Mata Nui and talk to Tohunga and stuff, even if it is an unfinished version of the game. The new trailer looks good so that's nice, although no gameplay was shown so hopefully it is at least better than the Legacy version when it's complete.

Oh man I remember this thread, I distinctively remember losing my sides at the Woody pictures. >>876 >>937 >is it weird to anyone that only water...was female? >(water being naturally gentle, meaning it suits the ideal female). Sort of like how the earth element was associated with wisdom and knowledge or fire with valor. Pretty much the only element with feminine traits was water so it made sense for it to be the female one. I don't know much about Bionicle other than once reading about how its inspired by Polynesian religion and folklore, but water has been considered a female element since ancient times, and in many esoteric traditions. Poseidon is the only male deity associated with water that I know of, and even that is not his sole association, he has other aspects to him.

>>1602 I can't believe it was only two years ago.

r/sexybionicles is good.

I've been messing around in Bricklink Studio a bit. I haven't used Lego Digital Designer in a long time, but I've found Studio to be much more intuitive to use, and the renders you can make with it are really nice.

Unfortunately, everything I've drawn these past few months are commissions that I can't show anywhere, much less here. However, I have modified some bills recently. I also made a small graphic hack of Super Mario Bros. I would share it here, but I don't know if it's a fault to my anonymity (I posted it on RomHacking under a nickname).

I went through some old sketchbooks today. I was kind of surprised by how many of the drawings I actually liked, I felt like I'd look back on it and feel like it was all garbage, but I was pleasantly surprised. I wish I wasn't so lazy, I should have spent more time developing these drawings instead of leaving them in an unfinished scribbly state. The pencil drawing of May out of her costume is the first time I drew her face I think. Hard to say how long ago that was, probably like 6-7 years, maybe 8 maybe 9. I should start putting dates on my sketches or something, I have a very rough idea of when all of these were drawn but since I have a bad habit of using multiple sketchbooks at once and drawing in random pages in old sketchbooks sometimes, everything is all jumbled together. I've mostly stopped doing that now though

Some more random stuff that isn't just Spider-girl. I have more but I don't want to fill up the thread with nothing but all my random old sketches.

>>2372 >>2373 These are very good drawings for old people. By the way, I love that Batman and Two-Face. I've always liked it when Batman and his characters are drawn in a creepy way.

>>2375 >These are very good drawings for old people Until now I realized this mistake. What I wanted to say was that these drawings are very good considering their age. I'm really sorry. I don't know what happened to me whe I wrote that.

>>1366 This board and lizchan were being shilled on 4chad when wizchan went down.

>>1375 lizchan doesn't seem to work right now so this board is all that's left. this is crazy

>>1380 never mind lizchan is working now

>>1216 Finally got around to watching this. God it's so comfy to imagine a peaceful carefree life in that little rural hamlet.

I remember watching the tv series long ago, but I never got around to watching the movie for some reason. I really enjoyed it, I'll probably watch the sequel at some point too. Much more of a serious detective movie tone than the tv series, but it was good at doing that so I enjoyed it. Maybe if I had watched it immediately after watching the tv series I would have been disappointed it didn't have the same tone.

>>2336 I started on another and I guess it's full of mildew because I get allergy symptoms when I open it. Damn. The rest of the box is probably the same.

>>2337 That sounds quite annoying. Only once have I had to deal with a book with those problems, and what I did was to clean it very carefully and try to ventilate it before reading it.

>>2338 It's my own fault for leaving them to rot for years instead of reading them. So I feel kind of guilt if anything. I tried leaving them out but they made my whole room stink. It seems that people are using ozone to disinfect them but I don't have an ozone generator.

>>1287 Just finished "The Plague" by Camus, it was ass, I may have skipped a lot. Working on "Priory of the Orange Tree", but I keep putting it down and not picking it back up. Not enough time to read :(

>>2359 >Priory of the Orange Tree I just did some research on that book, and it looks like it is over 800 pages long. I'm ashamed to admit it, but I can't remember the last time I read something that long. How do you like it so far?

>>2297 >>2298 Merry Christmas, guys. And I hope all of you have a nice New Year.

>>2297 >>2298 >>2299 Merry Christmas.

Hope the new year is treating you all well. Live with purpose.

>>2306 I wish I could. I wish I wasn’t pressured to work shitty jobs when I was younger and took the time to try to build a skill or create something so I could live with purpose. The other day I drove 7 hours to go to my favorite theme park and I took some psychedelics when I was on my favorite ride I thought why would I ever want to kill myself when this and life is so beautiful. One day back at my job and I want to die. It’s not even a bad job it’s insanely easy but I get talked to every day for taking care of my medical condition and they watch my every movement and I just want a source of happiness in my life.

>>2307 That resonates with me, it describes most of my life. But at some point work polutes your free time too, and you want to die everyday. I also use drugs to deal with that.