There's a lot of well thought-out posts to digest here, so I'm going to reply in summary.
>the Bolshevik usurpers consider themselves entirely beyond and above US Constitutional laws
They literally are. Don't forget: Rudy Guiliani is a lawyer. He saw what happened and outright stated, in no uncertain terms, that what happened was patently illegal. He also explained in detail how it was illegal, and that the police who searched his home should be punished for their blatant disregard of the law. In doing so, he spoke from a position of rational authority, as he is a lawyer (among other things) certified by the BAR association.
The constitution has failed, and the law now only exists to be enforced and interpreted by the sole discretion of the elite.
If there's a timeline worse than this, I can't imagine it, and I have a very vivid and morbid imagination.
I actually do take daily supplements: namely vitamin D (2000iu currently, but this dose has been slowly increasing over the years), Magnesium (400mg) and a multivitamin that I've tried to wean myself off of a couple times, but felt like shit whenever I tried. I'm not 100% sure what specifically in it is helping me, but clearly something in there is keeping my anxiety just barely short of self-destructive levels. I also take medications for my chronic year-round allergies, but I'm not sure of any secondary effects they may have.
My main problem is actually taking steps to open myself to help in the real world. I've been hiding everything for so long that it's become my way of life.
That, and the fact that I don't have anyone outside of my family that I'm familar and/or confortable with, and everyone in my family is either also
mentally ill (I know that they're good people at heart, but I can't expect them to be helpful for varying reasons) or too distant.
I have actually self-analized my behavior sometimes for multiple hours per day
and looked at what a healthier set of choices would look like as well. I take daily showers, I set an alarm for myself, I usually eat three meals per day, job-searching is still a chore (and the vaccine requirement thing popping up has done nothing but cause anxiety), but I still take time out of my day to think about my financial situation and how to stabilize it.
One thing I genuinely don't know is what the feeling of being in love is like. I've been approached a few times before by women (and it would probably happen more if I didn't avoid normal social contact) but I have absolutely no interest in being with anyone else, because my vision of what love looks like is an impossible ideal. I realize that it's impossible ideal, and that I would probably be better off for discarding it, but I can't, because that same impossibility is the only thing that has gotten me out of bed for over a decade. It's the same reason I'm still a virgin: I know that I could
just get laid if I applied myself to the task, but I just don't see the point in it.
Hey, you're doing better than me. I flunked everything during the first online-only semester. The fact that you've held on for this long means that you can adapt to this and possibly make it work out.
You've more or less summarized the philosophy that keeps me going from day to day, except for the afterlife part. While I earnestly would like to believe that there is something better waiting after this, I've never found the necessary spiritual strength to believe it, though I have thought about it a lot.
I speak from a position of experience when I say that there's a big difference between meaningless social interaction, and no
interaction whatsoever. All the kids (in the "developed" world, at least) growing up now can distract themselves from their woes by going online. Most of them will never know what it's like to be truly isolated, with nothing to do but explore the rabbit-hole of their own minds.
I saw it coming from a mile away, and yet I'm still dissapointed that they fell this far.
It wouldn't even be so bad if they just released the source for v3, but asking for nice things is just too much.
Edited last time by flashmaster on 05/03/2021 (Mon) 11:47:58.