43 - today i stole some gum from a convenience store with my friend alex. I cant stop thinking about jay and when ill see him in a few weeks. My heart is so full of him its unbelivable.
This morning i saw a post on an image board saying "If you are autistic put a sticker of your special interest on your water bottle" and i did just that and ive gotta say i feel pretty fufilled.
Now im just sitting in class, watching people show their religion assignment. I did mine on St Peter but eberryone elses was much better. Ill see Alex at break, i love kissing him so much.
I have my haircut on friday this week, i hope itll look good.
its almost been a week of me being a year clean of self harm. I feel berry strange, like theres nothing to look up too now but idk, ill get through this.
Im listening to the cocteau twins, specifically the song fotzepolitic. I think if heaven existed this is what they wood play.
My chest hurts due too how much i love jay. i can never stop thinkig about him.
its berry cloudy today. bright but clouds are covering the whole sky. i like it like this. I kinda hope it rains and i also hope it doesnt.
I feel berry neutral today, maybe numb is the right word