Today I ran my online tabletop game. 4 out of 6 players showed up. After the game we went our seperate ways. I spoke to my parents, anons on imageboards, and other people on Discord but I still feel unsatisfied. Years ago, after working on some club activity, a bunch of us wood go to a diner shoot the caca, eat, and relax. We don't have this here anymore. I want to do a casual social activity after an 'event' social activity.
I find myself watching anime where the characters hang out with each other and podcasts where the hosts act like my friends to substitute my own lack of deep relationships.