Christ, that's the nightmare, huh?
Y'know, I think there is a group of people out there, who are not unattractive and enjoy a good standing in life, but we're weird. Weird in a way that is difficult to describe, in many small, unseen ways, but other people can pick up on this. Not even necessarily consciously, but they notice the way we talk, our body language, the bad posture, awkward way we carry ourselves as we talk, a strangeness to our language, something... People can tell, just like the animals do. They can see what's different, and they shun it.
Anyway, I wonder, do you have any irl friends around? I believe it is through our social connections that, statistically speaking, most relationships around found. I've managed to make some normie friends now, and I'm counting on someday that investment paying off, that I'll get a 'hey anon my gf has this friend we can introduce you'. It's a longer strategy that requires patience but realistically, if I keep living, there is a real chance it will actually pay off someday.
Of course, being 41 probably makes your situation a bit more difficult again...
>It sounds too robotic and fake to be real
autism and /r9k/ exists; what kind of people do you think are posting here??
if anything your post sounds far more 'fake' lol.
>Wood you want to date a women who's constantly mopey and has a beer gut?
Uh, of course? I'm not gonna pull an attractive normal woman am I? I want someone to be sad with, where we can support each other, get drunk and rub our fat bellies together as we have gross stinky sex.