>Do you feel it has made you different?
Yeah, I feel like I'm well beyond the point of ever being normal. I'm a literal sperg but was never diagnosed with anything until I was in high school. Like you, I was never able to get close to people. I was socially awkward, but there were people who liked me well enough. There were even girls who had crushes on me for whatever reason. Maybe because I lacked that off-putting sense of desperation that so many guys have. Even aside from having bad social skills, there was really no way for me to take anything further. Being really introverted combined with needing a rigid structure from day to day ruled out spending time with other people outside of school. When I did try it, I became really uncomfortable and wished I was at home browsing the Internet, listening to music, or playing computer games. I sometimes see people saying that the life of a civilian isn't all it's cracked up to be, but I still wish I could have experienced it during my teenage years. I've always been an outsider, but I can't help but feel that I missed out.
>Wish you a nice day/evening too.
Same to you.