The last time I called myself a "Christian" I got really into it and burned myself out like it was a hobby, partially because I did treat it like one.
I'm trying to start slow, so I'm reading Proverbs and seeing how I can apply it to my life to separate this second try from purely mental to real life application. I know there's truth in here, I've always known, but I used that acknowledgement to convince myself I was taking everything else seriously, and I wasn't. I was on the outside, and convinced myself inside, but I wasn't ready.
Proverbs it is for now. Wish me luck. I want to say I'm trying, but I'm just dipping my toes in here.