I feel like God won't give me a girlfriend and i know how pathetic this topic is (if i wasn't anonymous i wouldn't be talking about this) but it's a big part of my dream in life to have a pretty girlfriend, and i had one when i was a teen but she became difficult and i was mean to her as payback and the relationship went bad, after i left, she became a huge whore and slept with every guy her brother brought home. How do i know the same won't happen with whatever conservative woman that takes a chance on me?
Mark 10:8 and the two will become one flesh.’d So they are no longer two, but one flesh. 9 Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate.” I don't understand this because men and women have clearly been separated, many have been divorced. There are some awful men and women out there.
Since God won't give a girlfriend i become my own pathetic idea of a lustful God through porn, and make sex accessible to me, and in doing so i don't need anyone. But my porn addiction has hurt some of my relationships and almost got me arrested had it not been for the mercy of God and other people. You can see how this is becoming a dangerous self fulfilling prophecy. I don't think i can stop masturbating, almost all my life is lewd entertainment, i don't think i can stop, i claim to be Christian but don't follow Jesus, i rather not speak of convictions because i am not an example of holy living. I claim to be against the satanic world but i also indulge in porn, the male side of the modern world. What time i spend not using porn i spend studying the bible with other Christians, Christianity is my hobby not my moral compass, and i have failed it.
Some women complain that men only want them for sex, yet at least that is something, women don't want anything from me. Why did God have to make women and men duel each other for sex. I feel like it's a hopeless situation, women are almost biologically designed to value whoredom and our society promotes that.