I am going to have to feed you the Jordan Peterson line here anon.
I don't know the nature of your "backsliding" (booze? snacks and soft drinks? excessive vidya? doomscrolling on Twitter? sleeping two thirds of the day away?) but what you need to do is reconnect with reality and this is best done by doing ordinary things in the ordinary world.
Clean/tidy your room/apartment. Make a proper meal and not some prefab crap. Go get some exercise, ideally outdoors.
Reading the Holy Book while your mind is slipping is a dangerous proposition. It might just as well induce psychosis as it might impart wisdom.
Center yourself first, then read the Bible.