>Listen bro, I believe in God but He has a lot of defending and explaining to do Himself.
What makes you think you're even in a position to even understand what the world from God's perspective even looks like? None of us even knows what our neighbors do behind closed doors. We barely even know the details of our own lives and yet you think such creatures as us are able to even stand in a position to demand God defend Himself? We are the sinners who must justify our lives to God, explain to Him why we have been liars, why we have hated and gritted our teeth and deceived and murdered and raped and committed atrocity after atrocity against one another, generation after generation and did so happily and with gladness in our hearts to do so.
> I don't care about that cliché'd old ranting about repenting,
Repentance is the heart of the gospel. If you are too prideful to humble yourself before God and recognize that you are in need of His forgiveness then you do not know Christ or have any idea why He had to go to the cross on our behalf.
> love is supposed to be a two-way street supported by clear communication between the two parties.
Where do you get your idea of what love is or isn't? Is it your own invention? Are you using the prevailing idea of love that you find in your culture? Or do you derive your notion of what love really means from the God who framed the universe and who invented the very concept of love in eternity past.
You have your cart in front of your horse, God sets the standard and what is true and right is defined by consistency with that standard. You would not even have the capacity to conceptualize the idea of love if it were not in God's purpose to allow humans to express and know love. to think that you then have a greater understanding of what love is than that God who invented love and supplied our capacity to know it then you are a fundamentally irrational person.
> What kind of Stockholm syndrome do you need to have when you endure all that suffering but you still believe He's without faults?
Because I have spent some time to search my own heart, to understand my own motivations with the decisions I've made and actions I've done in my life and I know that I am a sinner, I am evil, fundamentally there is a part of me that is broken, always has been broken and until the resurrection to come always will be broken and I have no excuse to give to justify myself in front of the High Judge of all of space and time. I have no evidence to bring forth to excuse my thoughts and deeds, I have no clever arguments that makes the things I've done or desired good. I am without excuse and I need God to have unconditional mercy on me or I will be justly and rightly condemned to hell.
If you do not see that the same is true for you then your pride is getting in the way of you seeing how bad things really are.
> If anything I've got some design improvement ideas for Him after he wiped us all out and tries again.
And this line confirms that thought. Humble yourself, repent and have faith.